my most current artistic statement

tldr: I'm drawn towards authentic failure, wild experimentation, remixing, and making people laugh. Most of my art is rooted in performance, as I play with other mediums: painting, collage, puppetry, dance, stand-up, etc.

I’m drawn to making a lot of different things. I act. I write computer code. I paint. I'm trying to make sculptures like Bob Rauschenberg...I compile monthly analytic data. I dance. I am always learning and trying a great deal of things. Some things I'm quite skilled at; other things I do because I enjoy the trying e.g. playing the piano — I don't know any chords, but I know which notes are which, which is enough to improvise and have fun. I’m trying to manifest the future I want to see in the world: less pain and lonliness because of one’s insecurities, more resources and knowledge for people who historically haven't had any. Making art is a good way for me to activate people's empathy and form a community around an experience. My work as a producer, dramaturg, administrator, Wikipedia-article writer comes from the same impulse. When I make art I am thinking about how to craft:

I've found that I'm constantly changing my mind about who I am. I often have revelations about myself, then forget them...then rediscover something or remember another thing.

Sketch of the difference between chaos and conflict

Theatre director JoAnne Akalaitis said that "chaos, not conflict, is the essence of drama". I take that literally as I do a lot of things. I enjoy the elements Akalaitis identifies: the illogical, the disruptive, the disturbing, and the reckless. Visually, I like messes. I like the juxtaposition of things that surprisingly go together. I have always been intimidated by visual art. But I’m pushing myself to be uncomfortable and try things, and forget the standards I agreed to at some point. Attached is a sketch I made on Evernote showing the difference between chaos and conflict.

do check out my digial beauty portfolio, where i store all the images, quotes, ideas, etc that intrigue me. for some reason it works only in firefox / safari.

^ Important influences/people I aspire to be like ^